| Cheer upzxc . |
[Aug. 15th, 2009|12:46 pm] |
To shayne`kaixingguo ! :) ,
Didn't i said not to hurt yourself anymore ! D:< !
So , cannot bang your head on the wall ohs ,
anything can speak to me , :DD .
Remember the promise you made to me ? (:
Never hurt yourself anymore okays ? :D
Don't ever try to commit suicide too .
life still long , live your life to the fullest .
No matter what obstacle might be in your way ,
Don't let them stop you from continueing forward .
Theres still much and much more things ahead in your life ,
which are more interesting and exciting ! :) .
Seriously , kaixingguo , when i see you like that , my heart's ache you know ! D:< .
So yeah , you must smile kkaes ! :D .
You'll never know who's falling in love with your smile :) .
Shayne is not useless .
Shayne is not a total failure .
Shayne is not stupid .
Shayne is good at her studies .
Shayne isn't looked down by others .
If shayne is looked down by others ,
ask them go suck their father balls ,
Lick their mother pussy .
Shayne will avoid seeing him flirt .
Shayne is better off alive .
Shayne shouldn't cry .
And yes , shayne must wake up , from all this nightmares ! :) .
and shayne must love yourself !
Cause shayne is born to love ownself , and not hurt and hate ownself .
I'm not fake , i'm real .
So you can't say all your friends are fake okay ! D:< !
Zenri will be there for shayne .
Zenri will cheer kaixingguo up .
Zenri wants shayne to smile .
Zenri wants shayne to stop hurting herself .
Zenri will wipe away kaixingguo's tears .
Zenri is happy that she has shayne as a friend .
last but not least ,
Zenri loves kaixingguo alot alot :) .
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[Jan. 9th, 2009|01:57 pm] |
mayonaka no shadow boy .
Look over here, Cherry, not over there, Cherry
My wishes never reach you
Here & there, Cherry, not using either, Cherry
My name is called and I sway confusedly
I want to become a midnight cowboy and snatch you away
I don't even mind if I have to risk my life to protect your smile
I like you, Cherry, it's not a lie, Cherry
My feelings for you just grow stronger
Come over here, Cherry, because I'm waiting, Cherry
Your bare skin is so smooth
Oh no, I want to touch it and flatter you innocently
Let your sweet and sour side remain
I want to become a midnight cowboy and tell you, tell you
If it's what you wish, I'd take you anywhere
Look over here, Cherry, not over there, Cherry
My wishes never reach you
Here & there, Cherry, not using either, Cherry
My name is called and I sway confusedly
No, don't sell yourself cheaply, tease me and make me fight for you
Your bright red, round cheeks are a waste
I want to become a midnight cowboy and snatch you away
I don't even mind if I have to risk my life to protect your smile
I want to love without being hurt...
I want to love without being hurt...
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[Nov. 11th, 2008|05:50 pm] |
nothing to post recently >< ..
mii and boyboy break le huh ?
well , he asked mii for patch , ii told him wait till ii get back from aus ...
hmm , holiday brored too .
but going austrailia gold coast on 14 nov , 3pm .
dun miss mii peeps ! :D
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[Nov. 3rd, 2008|12:41 pm] |
idk if im jus thinking too much or what .
but im just scared , to be alone , to be left alone .
maybe u're right , uu need time to forget her ,
idk ... seeing uu , letting her , stand nxt to uu in audii ,
ii couldnt help it . but cry . maybe im overly sensitive or wadd ..
so , ii went to take a leave first , didnt wan to disturb the both of uu ,
am ii wrong for doing tat ? If i am , im sorry .
jealousy kills , now ii noe .
not suppose to talk abt the past now , but ii cant help it ...
very sorry for the past , making uu jealous , all those stuffs .
boyboy , i love you .
ii swear ii do .. TT
if loving uu was wrong , ii dun wanna be right .
30.10.08 , 1.40pm is loved <3> |
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[Oct. 17th, 2008|04:35 pm] |
Hellos :D , so longg nvr post lerhh .
hmm , breakk withh ven le D: , actually quite long lerhh ..
now , iit hink ii manage to forget him lerhh barhh . x.x
fren saw mii slitt my hand tho =// .
but now , ii promise , ii rly wontt , slit agn lerhh .
sry for uu guys worrying for mii =// .
Hmms , ii now v confused lerhh ..
dunno if ii should , accept tat guy anot x.x ..
cos he waited mii for like , going 4 mth lerh ?
i dunno laas , ): .
now he currently in malaysiaa ,
attending some wedding dinner there x.x ..
dunno why , ii sort of miss him alot lurhh ...
Gahhss , nvm barhh ...
Nothing to post alrdyy =//
Byes , tkcares peeps ! :D |
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| i love him ! <333 |
[Sep. 28th, 2008|01:20 pm] |
Baby baby ! :D you're the one ii .. longed to hug , longed to kiss . ii miss you alot luhs D: . how ii wish ytd de time , could jus freeze jus for us D: . ii want you to be by my side forever ~ ii'll promise uu eternity , if uu promise to stay by my side forever . iloveyou , this are just simple words , but when ii say this , ii meant it . this 3 words , has lots of meanings . ii want you to be there for mii when ii need you ~ ii need you by my side , forever D: . stay with mii forever , will you ? ily alots alots , tkcares of urself yeahs (: . * mwarks ! |
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[Sep. 26th, 2008|05:22 pm] |
To my dearest sister :
why are you avoiding mii ?
ii wanna noe why yeahs .
uu said smth was pulling us apart , ii felt tat toos .
but idk wads tats .
sighhs , ii wan us to go back to the past , can we ?
ii miss your laughter ,
ii miss those time with you .
those crazy times ,
sighhs , tkcares yeahs (: .
byesbyes (: .
Ven baby ! ily <3 ,
200908 <3 , its everlasting ! |
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[Sep. 21st, 2008|10:40 am] |
BOO ! :D
Morning all :D .
Hmms , nth much to update yeahs .
hahas , ytd night couple-ed VenX ~ :DDD !
Left my current fam , sry abt it yeahs ~ ): .
Join-ed my baby derhs fam -Silence- :DD !
imma sub-boss ^^ !
kokjie ' Ven Baby :
Baby , dun ever leave mii kkaes ?iloveyou , ii swear :D !
ii need uu here , now , and forever D: .
2oo8o9 , our story starts and it will never end !
heard tat uu sunburn urself D: .take good care of ur skin alrights !
nxt time sick dun ton in evo le luhs !ltr more sick how ): .
ahhhh ! ii love you alot luhs ! ): .
* Hugs , kiss , bites
*Remember , II BITES :DDDDDDDDD ! |
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[Sep. 20th, 2008|03:07 pm] |
what the hell have ii done wrong to deserve all this ?
someone please tell mii ,
theres like REALLY REALLY no more reason for mii to live anymore .
sighhs , Since uu guys wanna treat mii litat ,
fine barhs , let it be ,
ii dunno wad to say alrdy .
always the one feeling so fuucking leftout .
nehmind , hope the time rly can cure everything .
i'hv forgotten him ! finally ! :DD !
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[Sep. 13th, 2008|03:47 pm] |
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| [ | Current Mood |
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| | cassie - long way to go | ] |
Hellos all ~
hmm , today nth barhs .
not going out yeahs , staying at home .
ytd night conference withh gerald KORKOR , vercis , kiana MEIMEI , bunbun .
v fun laas ;D , after tat bunbun suddenly emo , dunno wad happen ,
then kiana MEIMEI comfort her dao she oso emo , then cry .
then both of them cryy , ii bthh ~
ii go talk to kiana mei , tell her if bunbun emo ,
then she dun wan say wad happen ,
we oso cant do anything but to ask her cheer up only ?
dun cos of litat uu emo kkaes .
after that my both house phone no batt lerhs , so ii kup first .
then 1st less called mii , then chatt awhile , ii sort of fell asleep lerhs ?
then nvm barhs hahas .
today early in the morning gerald called mii wake mii up ! RAWRRSS .
hahas , nvm, after tat jiu on9 .
talked to dearie ` ahma in msn ~
she go night safari last night !! bo bring mii ):
then she say nxt time bring mii go ;x .
cos ii nvr go before okays !
hahas , she still planning if halloween gg night safari anot , cos got dunno wad event marhs .
hahas , then ii go audii , my mother suddenly tell mii todya got tuition
ii ji tao HUH , then ii say uu now then tell mii , ii dun wan go tuition alrdy .
then mother gan mii -.- , father gan mii -.- .
TUTOR OSO GAN MII -.- , knn , wad the fuucking right he have to scold mii sia !
qi si wo liaos , zzz .
after tat , ii jiu go in audii .
find cpl ?? then someone scold mii big fat liar -.-
okays lurhs , ii did say last night over the phone tat ii wanna remain single right .
but ppl thinking do chng kkaes ! fine , call mii big fat liar for all uu wan .
uu noe wad ? ii dun give a dam laas . zzzz
make mii fking pissed off nia . zzzz
suan lerhs lurhs ,
in the end , cpl withh -DIAPERS-x3 .
hahas ;D , tats all barhs , byesbyes !
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[Sep. 12th, 2008|03:34 pm] |
today nothing happen to school barhs .
quite siann in school tho ~ =//
in school spend most of my time thinking of himm ..
ii dunno why toos , suddenly miss him alot yeahs =// ..
but during english lesson was funny larhs !
miss tang , miss seah same into our class for supervision yeahs ?
dam scary at first derhs , but after tat jiu fun lerhs .
especially the short drama laaas ! ;D !
hahas , shall not elaborate more as not in the mood yeahs ,
ii want to forget him ! how ?
could someone teach mii !
i'hv alrdy tried not in contact him in msn ,
sms , audii alrdyy .
BUT WHY , cant ii get him out of my head / heart lehs ! ):
sighhs , helpp mii pls ! ): |
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[Sep. 11th, 2008|06:17 pm] |
Sighhs ..
i'm sorry , ii jus couldnt forget uu .
its been 2 month after we broke ..
but , i'm missing uu like hell ,
ii lied to my frens , tat i'hv forgotten uu .
cos , ii didnt wanna them to worried for mii ..
so yeahh ,
ii still love you like last time , ii dun deny .
ii still miss you whenever uu were not with mii .
ii want you back like crazy .
crying since the day uu were gone ,
wishing everyday tat uu would come back to mii one day ..
those time tgt , will nvr be forgotten .
i'm sorry guys , i did my best to forget him .
but ii jus cant , sighhs .
Tears for you will never be wasted .
Yes , i'm silly , my friends said tat .
silly for , wasting tears for you .
silly for , hurtting myself for you .
silly for , slitting for you .
silly for , wasting my time missing you .
many many more ..
Jealously kills , yeahs , i'm jus jealous .
jealous of tat girl ,
last long with tat girl yeahs , treasure her , like how uu treasured mii .
i'm stupid , yes .
i'm stupid for not treauring uu last time .
i'm stupid for not appreciating those things uu do for mii last time .
yes , ii regreted ,
regretted for breaking up with you .
ii fuucking regret now alrights .
sighhs ~ tats all ii wanna say barhs .
21.12.07 memories wont be forgotten by mii ! |
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[Sep. 10th, 2008|06:31 pm] |
Hellos hellos ppl ! (:
new in LiveJournal uhs ! hahas .
hmm , currently , missing him alot lahs ): ..
ytd heard tat he got new stead alrdy ? =// grats tho .
ii was like so shockk , then burst into tears , idk why toos >< !
but .. seeing uu happy will be great lerhs ..
last long yeahs ..
hmms , wont be updating alot in LifeJournal yeahs ..
anything can tagg mii in blogg (:
http://suicidalx-life.blogspot.com .
butt , wont be updating much there toos =//
tkcares guys !
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